Recently, I have felt like journaling and reading (my usually quite times) have been unfulfilled for me. I think that I have been reading, learning and dealing with some much the past few months, I have come to my resting point. Although even in this resting point I feel like I need my quiet time even more.
All in a few days last week I had been rejected several times by people in my life. So yesterday I was packing and cleaning (Mark was quietly studying most of the day) and suddenly I got this feeling in the pit of my stomach. I felt super nervous, but only the physical feeling. My heart was kind of numb. The longer the day went on the more I felt it and started to feel unworthy of everything that I have.
It wasn't until this morning I realized it was because of the random nonsense that happened last week. I never really deal with it properly. Even now, I still feel like I need to rest but filled my mind with good things and talk to God more during my day. I need to remember that God always forgives me and loves me even when people don't.
"You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it." (John 14:14)
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